oh my gosh. I am tired and frustrated and cross and I just got so incrediblyl angry at Owen. I know I shouldn’t let myself lose my temper and get so angry at him—-I should be calm and reasonable but I got SO ANGRY at him and I am angry and damn it he deserved for me to be angry at him. I am so tired and angry and sad. I wish Ernie were home. I wish my kids would just got to bed right now but it’s only 5:35. I’m tired and I’m sad. I’m sad and I wasn’t nice to Owen and it makes me hate myself even though he’s smiling now. I think he’s smiling to try to please me and it breaks my heart.